Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in robyn_skies' LiveJournal:

Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
11:48 am	Life is Wierd how do you explain how strange life is??? my mom won't discuss recent events. she won't take any responsibility for what happened. even still she supplies me with enough alcohol to deaden the pain. i went to bug her on friday night about going to the store but buying me something... when she announced that it was already in the fridge in the garage. as long as i'm not an alcoholic, she doesn't care. i don't drink during the week too much but not unusual to get smashed on the weekend. i'm lost... she set me up for all that happened and she wants to absolve herself with buying a few bottles. had a date on friday night and it was just way too awkward. we are definately not running at the same speed. so i came home and drown my passions. i'm not sure that dating is really a good idea... it just brings the old feelings up again. last week of school though and that is cool. it could be a long summer if the memories of last summer haunt me too much. i think that is why i'm trying to write here... to avoid the pain. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
12:06 pm	feeling alive? i had a long talk with my bf last night. what do i say? everyone who doesn't "really" know me, thinks of me as some pure little untouchable princess. oh, boy, can i play the game. if they only knew the truth of my life. evan keeps apologizing for things that are all too familiar. how do you express when a reaction isn't from shock, surprise or discomfort but from the touch being too familiar and bring out old feelings and thoughts. maybe no one else feels it, but i often feel caught between the past and the present. caught between the side of me that participated and the side that revolted. caught between my image and my soul. who everyone sees on the outside is not me, is not the one who goes to school and is not the one at the dinner table. i'm tired of the game and tired of being who i am not. it is hard to keep pretending and never quite saying what you want to say, never quite revealing yourself or the truth. never quite being real.... which feels like i'm never quite being alive, more of a robotic existence. what would it feel like to be free to be alive? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 9th, 2006
12:27 pm	Privacy am i being out of line. the house in which i live seems to have no concept of privacy. they respect each others but not mine. basically, it seems who cares about robyn.. feel free to walk in on her anytime. so i feel basically on display all the time. summer is coming and i really don't know what i'm going to do. hope to take one class at the community college and maybe get a job. last summers job was a flop though and i hesitate about doing it again. ever want to climb into a hole and hide? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
10:59 am	First Time Here Okay.. not a great first post but you have to start somewhere right? I just needed a place to talk about things I can't talk to the rest of the world about. If I seem to be hiding behind the screen it is true. My life as it really is and my life as my friends and family think it is are two completely different things. Sometimes life is good and sometimes it is bad... I need to talk about the bad at times. So here is my place. (1 Comment |Comment on this)